just stuff

I hate it when I'm asked of what I want because you know very well what I want
I'm only saying what you want to hear and what I should be saying
You know so well where I want to be and what I would choose
but you you still ask
giving me a slap on the face
I hate it when you ask...

jerks, all guys are jerks

poor "mommy", something happened out of the blues
totally random yet so funny
^O^

I realized how easy it is to say one thing but to do another
I felt that I was sure
like OK I will do this, I can wait
and then I am faced to write down the name, check the decline/withdrawal box
and then I'm not so sure anymore

I hope with the slightest chance that I will somehow win the lottery within a week and a half
I procrastinate hoping that maybe I will get a miracle, I just don't want to regret checking the box and then finding out something else
Progress though, I wrote down UCR and checked the withdrawal box for BC...
it doesn't feel great though, even if I wasn't really going to go
It feels like I am just one step farther from my dream, one step farther and farther
and soon I won't even be there anymore
wait 7 more days, all will be over right?
reality hits, dreams crushed, miracles....not happening, right?